Overwhelmed and Annoyed

If you don't want to hear me whining, then close this immediately and ignore this blog. You've been warned. :) I almost didn't post anything today, but my emotions are seeping out my pores and poor Mat's not home from work yet, and I'm sure he'll greatly appreciate me venting a little before he arrives.

Lately lots of little things annoy me. I'm sure it's normal, but I hope it stops soon because I even annoy myself! So, where do I begin?.....the crazy amount of grad school work I have left to complete in the next couple weeks, cleaning up after 2 dogs, dirt, smells, outrageous medical bills, unsolicited advice, and so on and so on and so on. Grrrrr! School work is overwhelming me lately and how do I deal with it? By procrastinating even more! I can't believe this is my last week of summer break. I accomplished the biggest, best, most important thing....getting pregnant!!!! However, it's left me completely unfocused on much else except that.

So already feeling my slightly annoyed self, I headed to the dentist today. I'm pretty good about keeping up with regular dental appointments so didn't really think much of it. I went to a new dentist, and the positive was that she is very kind, sensitive, and overall just seems great. But man, I wish one of my lovely pregnancy books would've issued a warning: Do NOT go to the dentist when you're pregnant (at least the first trimester anyways)!!! I had no clue what I was walking into. The hygienist asked me if I'd noticed my gums being sensitive and I said just a little, but boy was I wrong. Apparently it's a lovely symptom of hormones. As soon as she began to work I was flinching and squirming. She ended up putting some numbing cream on my gums to try to help, but it was the most painful cleaning I have ever had! Then, apparently my gag reflex is in overdrive so every time the water shot in my mouth I was gaggin! Ugggh, I was exhausted when it was over. As far as cavities and my gums go, I've always been in really good shape....1 little cavity when I was really young ( I barely remember it) and smooth sailing since then. But apparently things have changed....six, yes six teeth that need fillings!!!! O MY! All minor apparently and no big rush, but still...six??!?! You'd think I've been eating nothing but sugar in the last 6 months since I've been to a dentist. I feel nasty! So, even though I really liked the dentist and was glad I made the switch, I left with some REALLY sore gums and even more to feel overwhelmed about.

After leaving the dentist, I picked up some lunch and went to meet 2 girlfriends. That was by far the bright spot of my day! We work together and had hoped to be able to get together much more often over the summer, and we were successful at meeting up at least a few times, but it was nice for one last gathering before school starts back up. They got stuck listening to me vent for a few minutes, but they're great for that! I'm so lucky to work with them.

After leaving there, I go pick up my dog from the groomers only to be told he has some tummy trouble today. O yeaaaa, just what I was looking forward to! Hey, I needed to gag some more today anyways! Then, on the way home I start getting calls from people I used to work with asking me if "the news" is true. Of course I know what that must mean. It's not at all that I didn't want these people to know....after all they were with me as I went through a lot of the emotional parts of our battle with infertility. I was actually really looking forward to sharing the news with them, but wanted to do it myself and in a special way. Anyways, I met up with one of them for lunch not too long ago and told her I was pregnant, but explained to her my reasoning for wanting to wait a little longer to continue to share with others, but apparently she forgot that part. I'm not angry, just a little bummed. I guess there's no reason to be....it's great news after all, but just a little disappointed I didn't get to tell them myself. I'm sure I'll be over it tomorrow!

The great part about all this.....gagging, sore gums, annoyance, hurt feelings, and all is that I'm sure it's mostly due to my wacky hormones. And if those are wacky, then it probably means things are going great and our little bun is continuing to grow and prosper, so for that I am eternally thankful. Infact, all this whining has made me feel a little better already.