Listening to the RIGHT voice!

During this process and even through our struggle with infertility over the last several years, there have been many times that the negativity has slowly but surely crept into my mind. It is a daily struggle to stay positive and faithful. I believe that we learn from all our life experiences and one of the things that God is currently teaching me is that is okay to ask for help in remaining faithful. It's okay that it doesn't come easy and that I have to pray for help. This has been something that has become much more prevalent in the last couple weeks. I have mentioned before that I am very inspired by words...lyrics, quotes, verses, etc. My absolute favorite band is Casting Crowns and while nearly all their songs are very influential, there is one in particular that has been a source of strength and a reminder to me lately. It's called The Voice of Truth. My head is constantly filled with so many voices of negativity telling me that once again, this won't work or once again we'll get bad news, and just generally causing me a lot of self doubt. This song reminds me though that out of all the voices, the only one I need to listen to is The Voice of Truth. I've copied some of the lyrics below. I hope that it can be as inspirational to someone else as it has been to me.

The Voice of Truth
by Casting Crowns

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out his hand.

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me Time and time again "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says, "This is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will chose to listen and believe the voice of truth

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No call this morning from the fertility clinic, which is an encouraging sign that our embryos are continuing to do well. I'm done with all the Lupron, HCG, and Follistim injections! Now my daily meds consist of just one injection of Progesterone in Oil each evening. This was the one that I'd been dreading, but it hasn't been bad at all! Once again I seem to be lucky not to experience any of the pain, bruising, etc. that they suggest can come along with the injections. A friend of mine suggested icing down the injection site beforehand to numb it up and that has worked WONDERS! I'm also taking Tetracycline, Medrol, and low-dose Aspirin right now as well.....still a lot to remember, but less daily injections! The Progesterone in Oil works to prepare my uterine lining for implantation. It creates a sticky lining so that the embryos will be more likely to attach to it. The Tetracycline and Medrol work to prepare my immune system and try to eliminate the chances of any infection or rejection of the embryos once they are transferred. I continue to wait, work on staying relaxed, and listen to the "voice of truth." :)