Binky MIA

I never would've guessed that I would come to be attached to a pacifier! I'm not even really that big of a fan of them. I told myself we'd stop using them around 4 months, before it became a habit. But, yea...ummm that didn't happen. He really doesn't use it much. He gets one (or as many as I can throw in the bed) at bedtime and in the car, and that's about it. But let's be honest. When your kid can't soothe himself to sleep or stop fussing in the car and you're tired or about to pull your hair out, you're going to give them the darn "binky" and not think twice about it. Or I am at least!

I know lots of people lose pacifiers and are constantly replacing them. It seemed amazing that we'd made it this far without having to replace any. His two favorites are ones that we have used from the beginning. They were a little pair that we received at a baby shower. One of them said "I Love (with a heart) Mommy" on it, so course I was partial to it. The age range on the packaging said 0-3 months, but he has loved it long since then. Well, this week I took him out to run a couple errands. Our first stop was Blockbuster and when I took him in the store he had his binky and when we got back out to the car I noticed it was gone. I already had him buckled in his carseat and it was a cold, windy day. I thought briefly about taking him back out and retracing our steps through Blockbuster to find the binky. It seemed like too much hassle though so I just left. Once we got home I realized it it was his (okay, more like my) favorite binky! I was so sad that we'd lost it. Honestly, I am sure it was bound to happen sooner or later, and really what would I have done with it? I thought about calling Blockbuster to see if anyone had turned it into a lost and found, and then I realized how pathetic and cheap it sounded to call looking for a $2 pacifier that my son had long outgrown!

But the point of this long drawn out story is that it made me wonder if this is just the beginning. Will there be more and more precious things that I am so sad to lose or leave behind? I love seeing him grow and develop, but yet I cringe as I pack away clothes he's outgrown or toys he's phased out of. I just want him to be my baby forever and always proudly display "I Love Mommy," like he did with his cute little binky!