Seriously?

Yesterday was our 38 week appointment. Some of it went about how I imagined and then there were some surprises! I guess that's the world of babies for ya though! It started off with our ultrasound. The tech optimistically encouraged us that perhaps baby boy had flipped. I knew otherwise without even looking. It doesn't take a genius to tell me that the huge bulge I feel right under my ribs is a big 'ole noggin! Sure enough it was. He's not even sideways anymore...he's full frank breech. Head up in my ribs, bottom down, and feet tucked back up. Mmm..comfy! So, c-section it is. Disappointing?....yes. But I'd had a couple weeks to come to terms with the fact that it's most likely how it was going to be. I'm really okay with it, and Mat is too. It's not how I envisioned things, but most importantly all along I wanted to be open to all ideas of birth....natural, drugs, waterbirth, whatever! So if C-section is how he's meant to come out, then so be it. No sense in making a bigger deal out of it just because it didn't fit my idea of how things were supposed to go. I took my couple days to be sad about it and then moved on. However, one pro in all this c-section business seemed to be that we practically get to pick the date. Makes planning around work, family arrival, etc. kinda nice I will admit. We'd been told anytime during week 39 preferably on a Mon., Wed., or Friday. So that left March 2nd, 4th, or 6th. We'd decided on March 6th. It was the latest possible date that week, made for a weekend birth, we kind of liked the ring of 3-6-9 for a birth date, and it was only a few days before my original due date. So, yesterday when it was confirmed that we'd need a c-section, again doc point blank asked us, "what day do you want to have a baby?" March 6th it was! Or so we thought.....

To make a LONG story a little bit shorter, we realized that the doctor really has no clue what his own schedule is, much less took into consideration the other zillion c-sections that must be scheduled within the same hospital. The date must have changed 5 times over the next 15 minutes. We were sent to L&D to schedule it and after listening to that nurse and our doctor's nurse go back and forth, back and forth, we somehow went from March 5th at noon to March 10th at 7:30AM. What?! How'd that happen? That's AFTER my due date. Who has a scheduled c-section AFTER their due date? Wasn't that supposed to be one of the other pros here?! Fine, March 10th it was. Supposedly that was the first possible available date that matched the hospital and the doctor's schedule! We were literally getting off the elevator and walking out when my doctor's nurse calls my cell phone and pushes it back another day. Seriously???? By this time I really did want to burst into tears. But of course I'm walking through the hospital with Mat and his grandparents (who accompanied us to this appointment) and I really didn't think anyone wanted to see me meltdown right then and there. I don't know why it got me so upset honestly. I haven't been overly anxious to get this kiddo out of me. I've enjoyed pregnancy so much I've almost been sad to see it come to an end. But I think I just had it mentally in my head that I'd be meeting my son next week! I was getting excited, making plans, and envisioning the whole thing. Then, I had to start adding more and more days onto it. Plus, he's already measuring 7lbs, 11oz. and I'm feeling SICK with all this sore throat, sinus, snot filled head of mine that birthing this baby soon is starting to sound more and more desirable.


So, yes after all my venting and whining the bottom line is baby boy won't be here as soon as we thought. His scheduled birthday is March 11th. That is until my phone rings and they reschedule me again...which I wouldn't doubt for a minute. There's always the chance I could go into labor earlier on my own and then we'd obviously have a c-section at that point, but given I'm a first timer and my cervix still seems to be vacuum sealed shut it doesn't look too promising. Don't think though that I haven't been reading up on all the natural ways to induce labor. :)